I love fall. It is a time for a renewed start and that is just what I am going to be doing. On Sunday, we had a sermon about prayers and whether we know if they have been answered and have we been surprised when God does listen. For me especially the last few months, I was really starting to feel like my prayers were falling on deaf ears. Until I prayed knowing that God was listening, now I just needed to be mindful and see how my prayer was answered. Little did I know it would come later that night.
I have been telling myself and everyone else that I am really okay, I am getting past my miscarriage from this spring. Well the last few weeks, the pain has been resurfacing and times I just want to burst out crying. I know it is because my due date is upon me and by myself I am weak and can’t handle the pain. But with God I am getting stronger and know I can face the day with my head held high. So on Sunday I sent out my prayer that would God please give me the strength and lead me to a way that I can show and express my loss. Well later that night I found the Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day and some pretty amazing women sharing their stories. While it was making me cry I couldn’t help but smile knowing the God showed me the way, when I was ready to come to terms with my loss.
So I began reading Ann’s book and began keeping my list of 1000 gifts and a prayer journal to see just how God is listening and answering my prayers.
- quiet mornings
- loving hubby
- puppy kisses
- crisp fall air
- long hikes through the woods
- sunsets on Lake Michigan
- strength provided through God
- warm chocolate chip cookies
- storytime with little ones at the library